February 2012
7 posts
limitless.
it seems like my world has stopped spinning and time has ceased to pass. the time that is left sits patiently waiting completely still in my hourglass. the glances that were exchanged are frozen mid-grain; i’m so vulnerable i yearn a cuirass. an armor to protect me physically, an armor for my delicate heart. but you make me feel warm and i know i can trust, just from me, please don’t...
passing up hope.
for such a long time i was stuck in the past, until recently that is. i’ve spent so many hours, days, weeks, months just wondering if i’d ever be truly content. the thought of being alone became acceptable and for once i felt i could stand on my own. relationships and all the bullshit that followed was something i was willing to turn my nose to. i just couldn’t seem to win in...
January 2012
6 posts
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trial and error.
for years i never stopped and thought about what i really wanted out of a relationship or what i longed for in another. i’ve dated the sweetest of guys and the biggest douche bags.. a broad spectrum of loves that just failed over and over. i’ve never been completely content with another but i realized that the problem was in myself. i wasn’t happy with many aspects of my life and...
December 2011
12 posts
a light on false apathy.
from the first moment i conversed with you i had fallen head over heels. your laugh, your thoughts, the way you carried yourself, everything. twas perfect. i made you mine and i was truly yours. for months it was as perfect as the situation would allow our relationship to be. so far from me, but i didn’t care. then i got a job.. our timing was thrown off. you were busy as was i. my...
the absence of gaiety.
is it safe to say i miss you? oh how you’ve been on my mind lately… but i seen a video of you today; i seen the happiness in your face. i realized how good your life is and how i’m not involved nor am i in the race. all those times you told me your love for me would never die, i really took for granted. now that it doesn’t exist, i feel what you have wished on me since we...
eradicating the shadows.
setting fire to my past to illuminate my future. didn’t know if this was just another phase, yet i’m feeling so sure. so pure, you’ve cured the emptiness i’ve recently possessed. obsessed with attraction, obsessed with the idea i’m gaining progress. yes, since you’ve walked into my life my soul is clouded with love. instead of guiding me to look to you,...
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the great escape.
i sense a change in the wind embracing our presence. i’m prepared to run away with you but time is of the essence.
the sky fades to black and the cold creeps upon us. that look in your eye convinces me this is far more than lust.
one kiss from you and my world becomes still where i stand. the cares disappear when you take hold of my hand. i’ll be your bonnie if you promise to be my...
November 2011
4 posts
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just another fairy tale.
escaping reality used to be the easiest thing for me to do. i’d lay in bed, close my eyes and my wonderland is where i’d guide myself to. my eyes turned up to the sky seemed to keep me in awe. always blue with puffy white clouds forever gliding with out a flaw. the path i would walk was lined with the prettiest flowers you’d ever see. every where i looked there were plumerias,...
October 2011
24 posts
a cloud of impurity.
silence all around me accept the music in the air. nothing catching my attention, no reason for me to care. the ceiling is more appealing with every glance i fail to break. one persistent thought running through my mind is “why the fuck am i awake?” my eyes refuse to grow heavy and my body is getting agitated. i can’t find a remedy, maybe i should have masturbated. ...
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a path worth exploring.
breathe. something i’m finding more difficult to accomplish as each second conveniently creeps into the past. with every slide of my story comes a transition i’m unable to play off as smoothly as i did before you came along. what is a girl who is beyond broken to do? just breathe. just believe. time. it took such a minimal amount for you to know you loved me. every effort you made...
contentment.
let the gates of misery open and flood upon this lifestyle. pull me under the surface to suffer and watch me sink with a smile. attempt to kill me, let’s watch this get hostile. clear your schedule babe, we might be here for a while.
with every moment that passes, water continues to rise. as the fight rages on i succeed at exposing your lies. the truth is out and i feel the pain radiating...
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my curves will always be beautiful to someone, somewhere.
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by our own spirits are we deified.
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wordsworth