June 2012
6 posts
Anonymous asked: proud of you too. :)
Anonymous asked: Proud of you. <3
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wash, rinse, repeat.
it’s interesting to witness how things can transform from one wonderful aspect to the complete opposite in such a short period of time. anything from courtships to friendships and all grounds in between. every word, every person, every fucking thing is temporary.
but sometimes life grants us a moment of utter bliss. that stretch of time where it seems like nothing can shake us and we...
May 2012
15 posts
a time to bitch.
a night to let settle and with the sadness came anger. i have pondered the thoughts of this anon, i contemplated the drive behind his words. in my lifetime, i have had my fair share of moments of insecurities. i forced people i cared about to cause hurt to others for my own satisfaction, to make ME feel better. pretty fucked up, i know. i also know what it’s like to be on the receiving end...
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a line refined.
a claim directly implied by one’s recant has sent shockwaves throughout my inspiration. a tad shaken up from the accusations this all has left me stricken with admiration. a mild rage had managed to creep but quickly replaced by aggravation. it’s being said that i’m crazy, a lost cause at the least. i’m told not to write how i feel or i’ll be feeding the beast. well i...
anonymous.
well to sum it all up, i appreciate all of that. great to know actually. i know what i write about is off the wall but the point of writing is for myself. i like to get things off my chest and whether you guys laugh and make fun of me and call me this and that is completely fine. do what y’alls have to do. i write for me and anyone else who can relate which quite a few people can. and that...
apoetsvibe asked: Finally more posts lol
Anonymous asked: Are you planning on waiting for him then? What if he gets married? Sorry if I'm asking too many personal questions. Just trying to get better in sight on your poetry.
Anonymous asked: I see. Well you say you wish he loved you back, how do you for sure he doesn't?
Anonymous asked: So why aren't you with the "one" you're always writing about? Surely he's seen all your writings and knows how you feel, right?
stay awake with me awhile..
traveling through a swamp of memories, my endurance is starting to dwindle. the trees surrounding me are twisted and rotting. they seem to mirror the events that i constantly wish to relive. slowly fading, dying, only to be recycled into the dark waters. my reflection is sickening to see without you next to me. a step forward and my image is distorted, thankfully. thinking of what we had, how he...
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daddy's sent angel.
with the security of chained links and nailed boards come limitations. leading to an infatuation with situations that eliminate other’s exploration. to tell a tale of life and love, failing, derailing and sent above.. all behind the locks and keys of a home filled with mystery. a child’s pain, a mother’s cries hidden behind a father’s lies. only to be seen by the shared...
March 2012
2 posts
February 2012
7 posts
limitless.
it seems like my world has stopped spinning and time has ceased to pass. the time that is left sits patiently waiting completely still in my hourglass. the glances that were exchanged are frozen mid-grain; i’m so vulnerable i yearn a cuirass. an armor to protect me physically, an armor for my delicate heart. but you make me feel warm and i know i can trust, just from me, please don’t...
passing up hope.
for such a long time i was stuck in the past, until recently that is. i’ve spent so many hours, days, weeks, months just wondering if i’d ever be truly content. the thought of being alone became acceptable and for once i felt i could stand on my own. relationships and all the bullshit that followed was something i was willing to turn my nose to. i just couldn’t seem to win in...
January 2012
6 posts
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trial and error.
for years i never stopped and thought about what i really wanted out of a relationship or what i longed for in another. i’ve dated the sweetest of guys and the biggest douche bags.. a broad spectrum of loves that just failed over and over. i’ve never been completely content with another but i realized that the problem was in myself. i wasn’t happy with many aspects of my life and...
December 2011
12 posts
a light on false apathy.
from the first moment i conversed with you i had fallen head over heels. your laugh, your thoughts, the way you carried yourself, everything. twas perfect. i made you mine and i was truly yours. for months it was as perfect as the situation would allow our relationship to be. so far from me, but i didn’t care. then i got a job.. our timing was thrown off. you were busy as was i. my...
the absence of gaiety.
is it safe to say i miss you? oh how you’ve been on my mind lately… but i seen a video of you today; i seen the happiness in your face. i realized how good your life is and how i’m not involved nor am i in the race. all those times you told me your love for me would never die, i really took for granted. now that it doesn’t exist, i feel what you have wished on me since we...
eradicating the shadows.
setting fire to my past to illuminate my future. didn’t know if this was just another phase, yet i’m feeling so sure. so pure, you’ve cured the emptiness i’ve recently possessed. obsessed with attraction, obsessed with the idea i’m gaining progress. yes, since you’ve walked into my life my soul is clouded with love. instead of guiding me to look to you,...
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the great escape.
i sense a change in the wind embracing our presence. i’m prepared to run away with you but time is of the essence.
the sky fades to black and the cold creeps upon us. that look in your eye convinces me this is far more than lust.
one kiss from you and my world becomes still where i stand. the cares disappear when you take hold of my hand. i’ll be your bonnie if you promise to be my...
November 2011
4 posts
